Up late, can't sleep, might as well blog.
So, it's almost 4am, and I can't sleep. To much on my mind - Is the furnace going to be ok, car ok, etc, etc, etc.. I could get an Adavan to help me, but I seem so awake, and have some energy, so I figure I will post a blog update.
I haven't been awake all night, just since about 2:30.
Last post was on Wednesday so this will cover a few days.
Everything is pretty much the same. High fever, bloating the comes and goes with visits to the crapper, no desire to eat, everything tastes like chemicals, and I have no energy to do much more then a walk around the floor every few hours.
Friday night, and most of Saturday Sonja was here with me. I miss her so much and I can't describe how much better it is just to have her near, even if it's just in the chair reading a book. Thanks to all the Grandma's and Grandpa's and GrandDan's that made it a possibility.
Of course, the next day or two is like having the drugs taken away, and I go through a bit of withdrawal. Sad stories on tv, glancing at the boys pictures, anything sets me off, and I am leaking from my eyes. Within reason - I am a guy, and this is a shared accommodation, so I am not like some blithering heap.
I am working only by laptop light so I can't see the calendar with my numbers. In short, I seem to have a stable 0.1 White cell count, so hopefully that will start to come up soon. I am still, and will be for some time, getting platelet and blood transfusions to keep them at good levels.
I haven't been awake all night, just since about 2:30.
Last post was on Wednesday so this will cover a few days.
Everything is pretty much the same. High fever, bloating the comes and goes with visits to the crapper, no desire to eat, everything tastes like chemicals, and I have no energy to do much more then a walk around the floor every few hours.
Friday night, and most of Saturday Sonja was here with me. I miss her so much and I can't describe how much better it is just to have her near, even if it's just in the chair reading a book. Thanks to all the Grandma's and Grandpa's and GrandDan's that made it a possibility.
Of course, the next day or two is like having the drugs taken away, and I go through a bit of withdrawal. Sad stories on tv, glancing at the boys pictures, anything sets me off, and I am leaking from my eyes. Within reason - I am a guy, and this is a shared accommodation, so I am not like some blithering heap.
I am working only by laptop light so I can't see the calendar with my numbers. In short, I seem to have a stable 0.1 White cell count, so hopefully that will start to come up soon. I am still, and will be for some time, getting platelet and blood transfusions to keep them at good levels.
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